TORONTO — Canadian actress Pamela Anderson is vowing to give up reality shows and focus on her personal life and charitable endeavours.
In an essay published in Flaunt, the B.C.-born bombshell said participating in the U.S. version of Dancing with the Stars and the U.K. series Dancing on Ice was “like sticking hot needles in my eyes.”
Anderson said she used the money she earned from the competition shows to pay bills and settle lawsuits.
“I sold my soul to save my beautiful home,” she wrote.
Anderson, who turns 46 on Canada Day, said years of decadence led to stress and hardship that she tried to hide from her sons, Brandon and Dylan.
“I’ve gone off the deep end on numerous occasions. I have felt I was mad, crazy, out of control,” she admitted. “I have struggled in the shadows, not alarming my kids, just handling business. I am a good mom.”
Anderson described herself as an easy target for lawsuits but admitted to accumulating a large tax debt.
“The reason I got behind was because I was in the middle of building my house and a few deals fell through in 2007,” she explained. “I had no idea my tax account had been used to pay a contractor who had gone 3x over budget.”
The former Baywatch star and Playboy model said she is about to launch the Pamela Anderson Foundation “which will encompass all my charitable passions” and is in the early stages of creating an artist retreat in her native province.
She is open to doing another TV series, a movie or a cabaret act. “I feel ready,” she wrote. “My kids are old enough now. They want me to succeed.”
Anderson, who was married to Motley Crue drummer Tommy Lee, singer Kid Rock and film producer Rick Salomon is also looking for Mr. Right.
“I have experience more lust than love,” she shared. “Men are rough with me. I hope that changes with time. I’ve created an image even I don’t understand and invites a strange and enthusiastic attachment.”
Anderson admitted she can’t fight her “cartoon image” and explained why she wrote the essay.
“I want you to know me before it’s too late, before I’ve fallen into the trappings of being ‘not me’ — before I’ve conformed and become a robot.”
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